Dear Diary I now have a weight goal!!!

That's me clapping Hercules Hercules....

So I would like to emphasize that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).  That is when your hormones are berserk and causes you a multitude of problems from infertility to diabetes.  Yeah fun fun.  Anyways I have always struggled STRUGGLED to lose weight.  Yeah I have been fat for a good part of my life oh sorry for those who are sensitive let me rephrase I have been skinny intolerant for about 20 years of my 31 years of existence.  Yeah skinny when I was little and there were those years in college I lost a lot of weight and kept it off until I met my husband.  You know love it’s a curse makes you let yourself go.  I gotta man now I can stop caring, ha.  If only that were the case, I didn’t stop caring, I went to exercise class, or EXORCISE class (I will keep milking that for a while).  I took a nutrition class went on the Zone Diet, South Beach, Atkins, Schwarzbein Principle diet, you name it I have tried it.  It worked for a little bit but it would come right back.  Yeah I think in college I lost a ton because I starved myself and ate no meat.  I was not healthy losing weight and I walked everywhere.  So when I finally did eat a meal with meat BLAZAM I ballooned up like I belonged in the Klump Family.  Then when I ate like I was supposed to I still gained weight WHAT THE H-E-Double Hockey Sticks.  Well I found out when I was 27 I had PCOS, uh okay so what???  Well Dr. Mac, my endocrinologist, told me that my hormones are not balanced at all.  As he tested me more and more it became evident I was insulin resistant.  Meaning this, so let’s say you eat this puddin pop and you are doing your Cosby dance as you do it, well your brain tells the body hey you need to check out these sugars coming in and make them energy and hey you insulin monitor these sugars make sure they convert and are absorbed through the fat and muscles correctly.  Well my insulin is like nope not going to do it, sorry we are on strike, sucks to be you.  So my insulin buddies don’t do their job so my body stores it up as fat causes my pancreas to work overtime and then eventually I will have diabeetus.  Fun Fun Fun, so yeah naturally losing weight will help you with insulin resistance but get this BECAUSE I am insulin resistant it makes it hard to lose weight, awesome right.  I am in between a rock and a hard place.  Now that you have some information about my situation lets delve into what happened today. 

My husband and I are trying to have kids and me being overweight with PCOS is not ideal to conceive.  I went to my doctor and told him I wanted to try to have kids in the near future.  He explained to me about my insulin resistance and how it affects my testosterone and progesterone, pretty much everything.  So he proceeded to write me a prescription for Metformin.  This drug is usually prescribed to women with PCOS who are insulin resistant.  He said it helps your insulin act like it is supposed to act and not be on strike basically.  He said it has helped people lose 2-3 lbs a week up to 10 lbs a month.  He told me he wanted me to lose at least 40-50 lbs and then we can test my hormones again so he can see what the best way is to proceed to try to conceive.  So yeah this really opened up my eyes.  This made me think okay so it is more than trying to fit into jeggings.  Which side note 3 times a lady stores (looking at you Lane Bryant) SHOULD NOT be selling jeggings, no thank you I don’t need to look like a sausage bursting in its casing.  Seriously though I can’t have any more excuses of well meh who cares.  I don’t know why but Dr. Mac telling us okay you need to lose weight it really hit me.  Then when he said 40-50 lbs it didn’t seem so daunting.  He did say even losing 20 lbs makes a big difference so he told me to think of it that way.  First lose 20 lbs, then 20 again, then  10.  This I can do.  When I go to websites like ahem Weight Watchers the program says oh you need to lose 100 lbs, what!!!!!  My doctor says no 50 lbs is fine.  And now we wonder why people end up being anorexic.  They are like okay so I have to eat dust and drink a thimble of water in order to maintain my weight and stay a size 2.  Hahahahaha I will never be a size 2, according to websites and what nots they tell me my ideal weight is 110 lbs, and I laugh and laugh and laugh.  My endocrinologist knows how my body is, I will lose weight but I will never be rail thin and that’s what I need to drive into my mind.  When I was in college I wasn’t rail thin but I was much smaller then I am now and I was happy and fine.   Plus I am a BMW, Big Mexican Woman, and BMWs like to eat good food.  So my goal is to lose 20 lbs in 3 months and 20 more lbs in another 3 months.  Also I am starting a new type of eating plan called the Low Glycemic Index.   I talked to Dr. Mac about this and he highly recommended it, he said he told most of his patients to use this guide.  This plan encourages you to eat foods with a low GI (Glycemic Index), in other words not a lot of sugars which in turn won’t cause your insulin level to rise rapidly which leads to insulin resistance.  You don’t want to eat foods that cause a sudden spike in your insulin but foods that cause a slow rise.  He also told me( sorry Hit Girl as I know you are a diet coke addict) that its worse to drink one diet coke then 5 regular cokes because Aspartame really causes your insulin level to rise up fast and all those artificial sweeteners are bad for you.  He told me that if I really need to drink a soft drink look for those diet drinks made with Splenda or Sucralose because they are made of natural sugar.  I use natural sweeteners like pure maple syrup, agave nectar and honey.  I have read that these sweeteners do not cause your insulin levels to spike as much as granulated sugar or artificial sweeteners.  Well now I am on my way folks.  Next up my exercise plan!  Stay Tuned.  ***I will have a photo gallery of before and after soon up for my progress but I won’t take pictures of my gut to show it shrinking like Biggest Loser in only a sports bra ugh no way will any of you see my naked rolls, those are for my eyes only***

This is my before picture.   See you 20 lbs from now.